When Melancholy Strikes...

Lights off.
12:28am on my watch.
Everybody's found rest along with a summer rain.
Inside my room, listening to somber music.
Everything was darkness,
Except for the bogus light that came from an entity brought about by human intelligence.
I looked at the mirror and I can't see my self.
Seriously, I can't see the real me.
Perhaps due to the ambiance's saturation.
I looked again.
I recognized a different person.
I saw a gush of tears.
Copious emotions were coming out of that person's soulful eyes.
Would you tell me who I am?
Would you tell me where I have been?
And please, tell me what I have become, would you?
I was trying to understand what had happened, but I failed.
I tried to recollect from the past but it's just purely contrite thoughts I was getting.
When will realization come into existence?
Would it take longer than the time for a theory to become a law?
I wish it wouldn't because I want it now. I need it now.
But that's the way it is, as whispered by a psyche of nowhere inside me.
I need to get through a lot of sacrifices.
A lot of proof should be defended.
I wish I just have to draw a line.
I wish it's just as candid as singing a song.
I wish I could have just listened to a subtle violin passage.
Oooh how I wish it could be as easy as that and everything will be all right...


lucas @ April 2, 2009 at 4:06 PM

this is wriiten with much eloquence and poignancy, leoj :) kudos.

i hope you get through this 'crisis'. we all go through this kind of struggle. but we are built to endure. God bless you.

yeah..possibly. pero sa pagkakaalam ko stable ang varicella. hindi xa prone for mutation unlike the flu virus (almost yearly ang pagpapalit ng strain) and corona (na kapag nagmutate e nagiging cause ng sars)...

Leoj @ April 2, 2009 at 5:19 PM

Thanks, lucas.
Yup I know I'll get through this one, of course by God's grace.
Salamat ulit.

Hahai, may bago akong nalaman sa lecture mo. hehe. We'll see kung mahahawa ka o hindi. Kapag hindi ka nakapag-update ng blog, alam na. haha.

Bryan Karl @ April 2, 2009 at 8:39 PM

Great post and great blog! Keep up the good posting! :)

Leoj @ April 2, 2009 at 11:23 PM

@bryan karl: di naman. konti lang. haha. salamat. ganun din sa'yo sa blog mo.

austenfan @ April 3, 2009 at 12:53 AM

shet. nosebleed me. haha.

Leoj @ April 3, 2009 at 1:34 AM

@ausrenfan: ngek. nosebleed ka diyan. naku, ako nga ang nosebleed sa blog mo. haha.

Ayang @ April 3, 2009 at 9:44 AM


ang lekat, nagdadrama. idaan na lang yan sa gimik niyo nila ana. in ten years ba maaalala mo pa rin yan? hindi na!!!

di naman ganun kalaki ang impact niya sa buhay mo davers?

that, too, shall pass. refresh na lang for the new sem. =p

you ca do it!

Leoj @ April 3, 2009 at 12:08 PM

hahai. di lang naman kasi acads, mara. lahat naghalu-halo na. pero salamat sa sinabi. oo tama ka, kung iisipin hindi naman ganunn kalaki ang impact nito sa buhay ko (kung angtinutukoy mo eh yung acads ko). naku, there's more to life than acads sabi nga. at hindi naman talaga siya ang priority ko. malungkot nga lang kasi dahil dun, yung iba kong priorities eh nacocompromise. pero salamat sa sinabi mo.

at anong gimik namin nila ana? kasama ka kaya dun. bawal tumanggi. hehe. sama na.

Ayang @ April 3, 2009 at 2:04 PM

watcha problem, boy? kwentuhan mo naman ako!

sasama ako sa gimik kung may pera ako. hahaha!

the donG @ April 3, 2009 at 5:59 PM

idaan sa pagbabiyahe ito. summer na. masaya na dapat. hehehe...

Leoj @ April 3, 2009 at 6:31 PM

@Ayang: sama ka muna, kwentuhan kita. hehe. sama na kasi. dapat nag-aaral ako ng dose ngayon pero ito nagrereply ako sa comments niyo. hehehe.

@Dong: oo nga eh. idadaan nga namin sa biyahe. may maisusuggest ka ba? btw, wala kaming gaanong budget. haha.

pacu @ April 5, 2009 at 10:14 PM

your in my blogroll na.. :)

Anonymous @ July 9, 2010 at 6:43 AM

I didn't understand the concluding part of your article, could you please explain it more?