Always will I find rest in You.

When I say, "I am tired"

God says, "Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."

the third time is this

This is my third entry that connects me to YOU. I could not really explain what's gotten into me right now. Why, all of the sudden, I jump into a thought that I am wanting you to just play in my mind over and over again. Even if it gets me fazed. Hmm...yeah, sort of. This is how I exactly felt when I first made a blog post in here about you. Well, not actually about you, but rather FOR you. And as far as I can recollect, the second was neither about nor for, but as I had sketched those words, you were yet again playing in my mind all along, and all through out, if there is a difference between the two. So technically, it's you again who induced me to perk up this outdated blog.

Oh, well, thank you. So, shall I fire my thoughts away? Hmmm...all right.

Some "things" are bound to be just appreciated. I stress on JUST. There are "things" that are best from afar or say, from a certain distance. That you have to maintain that dreadful yet something-to-be-grateful-of distance; because if you don't and you try to draw nigher into it, depreciation takes over. And worse, when you get to the point where that "thing" is, you'll realize that you are better off away from it. But that's a very lucky situation you can get in. Because, possible are the chances that you are totally restricted and wired from getting closer to that thing. Ergo, no matter how you try, and no matter how you try to think of ways, you just can't go nearer into it, and finally comprehending -- you are only bound to look at it from afar. :(

stuck in reverse

I haven't been updating this blog for like a month or two now. All right, what I mean is, I haven't done a REAL blog post since...uhm, I actually don't know when. I got no sense of time recently. Many things had happened in a spur. And up until now, things are happening so fast. It just can't help but to put any plans and timetables you got in disorder. Well, isentropic life would be boring anyway, so just compromise and let it be. Now, I can just hope to sketch some unfeigned me in here. Although, I am supposed to be in chemical-kinetics mode right now; enticed am I to do other stuff such as this one, sadly. I am relieved, though. Because, I am doing something, at least, rather than nothing.

I got a lot of things to say. things that I want to clear up even to myself. But as many would say, "I can't express myself. I do not know where and how to start it off."

D**n life. No matter how I try to fix it, it just gets more and more disarrayed.
Anyway, here's how I prefer to put my thoughts:

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Stuck in Reverse

Was this what you call echt?
When there was a spontaneity dearth.
You thought it was non-reversible.
But equilibrium was the main principle.
To make it forward-biased, you wished.
Sadly, not enough was what you unleashed.
You yearned for it and gave a hopeless sigh.
For you, 'twas the last and do-or-die.
Until you knew the opposite was the dominant.
You became less chromatic but more resistant.
So then, you still fight but stuck in reverse.

Re: Finger Print Lock

I thought I can only see this in high-tech futuristic movies, but it's sure existing for real -- opening a lock using your fingerprint. Our technology is indeed getting more and more advanced. From old fashioned key lock to number-combination-requiring lock, and now, I just can't imagine that we already have a keyless lock, or a fingerprint lock.

Less hassle --you need not to carry your key every time and everywhere -- is not the only advantage of this keyless lock, but less worries (not like keys, you'll never lose your fingers, right?haha), and a lot lot more secure and safe home for us.

With a relatively achievable price, this keyless lock can program up to 50 fingerprints and has a one year battery life. Sounds cool, doesn't it?

made my day.

"How tired I am of this unbearable distance between us.
How I long for the toll of the recess bell.
Have you forgotten me?
Grown mindless of me?
Tell me I am not writing into an abyss.
Or that is what will become of my heart."

-from this video:

How to fix your credit

Hello people! I found this site where you can have a credit repair. Actually, the site is not helpful to me since in the first place I don't have my own credit card and loans that I need to settle. But just in case you are looking for a company that can fix credit and you want an online solution for it, just give this a try.

Here's how this credit repair service works: Once you submit your credit record to the company, which is done online, they will go directly to the institutions who are responsible for the negative and incorrect data on your credit report. They'll have these negative information removed through the credit reporting agencies and a copy of written transaction will be sent to you for verification.

If you wish to know more on how they repair credit, just go to their site. :)

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You just have no idea...but this one's for you.

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Oh when the sunshine beckons to you
And your wings begin to unfold
the thoughts you bring and the songs you sing
are gonna keep me from the cold

And if the sword is here and among you
and its words may wound my soul
you can fill me up with what you've got
cos my heart's been keeping old

She is love, and her ways are high and steep
She is love, and I believe her when she speaks.
Love, and her ways are high and steep
She is love, and I believe, I do believe her when she speaks.

-Oasis, She is Love.

Student loan, anyone?

If you're in college, and you are desperately latching onto different ways to obtain instant moolah, you probably might want to try student loans. How? well, ask me!

I've been applying for student loan since second year because of -- uhmm, do I really need to say it? -- selfish reasons! hehe. Actually, during that time, as I was in despair and in headlong rush of accumulating instant wealth (LOL!), I ventured to a "business project" (notice the quotation marks!), which only meant that I will have to offer off my tuition fee. And obviously, I won't be able to enroll that time, so my resolve was student loan! And now, because of that, I am applying for student loan every semester.

If you got the same problem as I did, I'll have to advise you not to do the same! Imagine the hassle I have to go through every semester, I told you...it's not really advisable. Anyway, if you insist, you might want to try this Private Student Loans offered by Next Student. I haven't tried this online College Loans yet, but it seems rough-and-tumble-free service. Well, you tell me after trying it! :D

But if the bright lights don't receive you...

...you can turn yourself around and come on home.

Ooops! dont get me wrong. This isn't another hapless, emo post. Well, as it may seem, I don't deny that I am feeling a bit dismal tonight though. But if you know the song, well, I hope you can relate. It's just sometimes, you made a decision, and it then turned out to be totally different, afar from what you had expected. What else can you possibly do, when you're already being caught and dazzled by that bright lights? and when that bright lights deprived you of seeing things other than its glare? Resist it, I dare you, when you get there. Oh, yes...seeing the song from the receiver's point of view, huh! (of course, except that I am a boy). If you still can't relate, just please listen to the song, and you'll see. I hope you do. Anyway, it's glad to know that after all those wrong moves, people are still there, ready to listen. And what's even overwhelming is that they but pay attention and understand. They define loved-ones. Awww!

Well people, by bright lights, of course you do know that I don't simply mean light fixtures. Sure, chandeliers can be as dazzling, but it can never be as deceiving...Oh well, it's nice to see some home lighting again, and feel really at home!

Repost: Something to Break the Stress-Streak...

We have just been assigned our undergraduate research topic and my group mates and I are on the search for a "publishable" plant design. As the professors were discussing what we ought to be doing, me and my group mates started getting that tight feeling in the chest. This is going to be one loooooooong academic year. I am now on my 5th year as a Chemical Engineering student. Next year, I hope and pray, I will be graduating. We are only on our first week of classes, but it feels like a month's worth of studying already. I never imagined myself to be a library-person, but as fate dictates, I've started to spend my time at the college library every after class along with my group mates. If you are familiar with the show, it has been Big Bang Theory-type of conversations do happen in real life.

I would like to repeat that it has only been the first week of classes on our final year as students, yet we already feel like we're being deprived of life! Hehehe. We are already aching for fun!!! Any kind of it...please? *sigh* People have different ways of coping with stress (detoxify, if you must), but myself, I prefer gaming! Yay! But first, I need to buy me a new console...Since I don't have the time and energy to go shopping for a new gaming console, I've searched for online sellers and came across ShopWiki.com. The home page has a nice, cool and clean layout, and what amuses me about this selling web site is that it has its own search filters. If I want to buy a red gaming console that costs under $50, I can just adjust the price range AND select the color red in the product color filter.And voila! Out of the web page comes a candidate to your request! How cool is that?!

My schedule has been keeping me away from updating myself with the "tech" world, I wouldn't know which console to buy. Good thing that ShopWiki contains entries describing the products, like Handheld Gaming Guide and Video Game Controllers. Hah! I can't wait to get my hands my hands on those! Stress, be gone!

Weather and Sports

Lately, I have taken interest in the weather. Sometimes it even becomes a topic for conversation. I feel so old.

April and May are summer months here in our country. This year, we have experienced the "wettest" summer months, at least in my existence. Believe me, after almost two months of cold and gloomy weather, I began to miss the sun. Almost every single day, it would rain. Perhaps this is one of the effects of global warming. I knew we should have listened to Al Gore! Hehe.

June, on the other hand, is supposed to signal the start of the rainy season. Guess what? The weather is hotter than Hades, humid as...humidity can be. There. I can almost blame the heat for my non-productivity. I'd rather lay in bed than do anything that would make me break a sweat, and with this weather that could mean an activity as petty as standing up.

And since I had been blabbing about weather, I read online that the US Open golf season is on going and the weather is giving the players a hard time.

Thinking of golf and the tranquility of the golf course leaves me at peace. Hey, if you're somewhere near the area and are experiencing great weather, why don't you try golfing in Myrtle Beach? Surely you folks could use some Myrtle Beach golf vacations!

You just need to click on the links, and you will be directed to their site. The place looks amazing! You would've been crazy not to go appreciate the green of their golf courses!

Tempted? Check out their golf packages and go book your golf session online. Go on now, you lucky one! Stretch those muscles and breathe fresh air!

Also, say "hi" to the sun for me!!!

The Bleachers and The Umbrella

My first photoblog...








I hope those pictures say it all...

Enjoying my internship so far.

Spending my vacation-slash-internship here in Benguet.

Unfortunately I am not able to give the details since I have a very limited time here in Baguio. We're going back to Philex Mines community in few hours.

But I promise to share all my experiences as soon as I get home. All right.

Hehe, senseless post.

I am Leaving

I'll be having my internship at Padcal, Benguet. In the next 10 hours, I am leaving. I am excited, sure, but I am somewhat sad about it since I can't spend my summer with my family and friends. We had our first get together in Batangas though. But the heck, of course that's not enough for this summer. After all the strains from my academics, I deserve more indulgence than that. Yeah boy, I do.

Oh, well.

Aside from the training, I do not know if I can still manage to do other things. I even don't know if I have internet access there. Oh noes, having no internet access would be as boring as watching GMA's TV programs (LOL). So I just hope I have. Anyway, the company is Philex Mining Corporation. But wait, I'm not going to mine gold there.haha. Of course, my training would be chemical engineering related -- stuff like separating metal from its ore. All right, before I get too technical, I'll have to stop there.haha. So speaking of metals, just in case you are searching for online store of steel bars for aerospace purposes, here's the link: aerospace metal alloys. I wonder if Philex Mines does metal alloys. Well, never mind.

Spam Messages Are Not All Spam. So Be Careful.

Someone has spammed me this. Even so, I took time to read it and got guilt-struck. And I hope, after reading this people, you'll be able to reflect on what the message says.

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Are you a pleaser or a servant?

Jesus said, "And whoever of you desires to be first shall be slave of all. For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve. . . " Mark 10:44-45a (NKJ)

Serving others is a biblical command that comes with a promise that if we humble ourselves in service to others that we will be seen as "first" in the eyes of God. Who of us doesn't want to receive God's approval and enjoy the rewards of His favor? But many of us who are naturally inclined to serve can slip into a pattern of doing it out of fear of rejection or desperate need for human approval.

How can we tell the difference? How do you know if you're serving for the right reasons? Here are some clues:

PLEASERS. . . measure their worth and identity by the response they get from others for what they do. They tell themselves, "If I'm a good person people will approve of me."

SERVANTS. . . recognize that God values them so much that He created them with unique gifts and abilities that can be used to help meet the needs of others.

PLEASERS. . . often neglect their own physical, emotional and spiritual needs. They often feel guilty if they take time to relax, do something just for fun, or buy something for themselves.

SERVANTS. . . recognize that they, too, must have adequate rest, nourishment, and encouragement in order to be strong enough to contribute to others.

PLEASERS. . . are often motivated by guilt. They say yes to many requests in order to make up for some sin or failure (real or imagined) they haven't forgiven themselves for. Sometimes they feel guilty just because they believe they are inadequate or inferior to others in some way.

SERVANTS. . . are motivated by love. This could be love for the person or cause that they are serving or simply love for the Lord. Out of gratitude for God's love and forgiveness, they allow Him to love others through them.

PLEASERS. . . act out of need for recognition and attention. They want to be perceived as selfless, but, truth be told, they like impressing people with how busy and indispensable they are.

SERVANTS. . . act out of a desire to please God. They see their efforts as a response to the Lord's command to serve others. Their goal is to hear Him say, "Well done, good and faithful servant!" They can be content behind the scenes because they know God sees it all.

PLEASERS. . . often give mixed messages. They say yes to requests and take on more responsibilities, but often complain that they have too much to do.

SERVANTS. . . say yes only when they are able to sacrifice their time or resources willingly and cheerfully, and say no when they are at their reasonable limit of obligations.

PLEASERS. . . often struggle with feelings of anger and resentment because people don't appreciate how much they sacrifice to meet the needs of others. They receive an unhealthy satisfaction from being a "martyr."

SERVANTS. . . are able to serve for the joy of serving and aren't as dependent on the appreciation of others to determine their feelings and attitudes about their service.

PLEASERS. . . feel that they can, or must, do it all alone. This is partly because "if you want something done right, you do it yourself" and partly because they're reluctant to "impose" on anyone else to help.

SERVANTS. . . recognize that others may actually enjoy helping and can accept that others have abilities that will contribute to accomplishing a goal - even if they don't do it the same way.

PLEASERS. . . have low self-esteem and are often threatened by others who might be able to perform as well or better than they can. They may criticize how others do things in order to make themselves appear more competent.

SERVANTS. . . have high "others-esteem." They appreciate the gifts and abilities God has given to others and delight in how the variety of gifts in a team of servants works together for a greater result.

PLEASERS. . . feel overly responsible for the outcome of their efforts. They tend to try to control or manipulate the way people respond to their "help" and become frustrated when people don't cooperate. The resulting sense of personal failure contributes to their feelings of low self-esteem, guilt, and resentment.

SERVANTS. . . do what they can and leave the rest to God. They understand that God is in control of the timing and circumstances of achieving a goal, whether it's changing a life or organizing an event. They "let go and let God."

So, are you a Pleaser or a Servant? It comes down to two things: attitude and motivation. The Scriptures give us some guidance on how we should approach our opportunities for service:

This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one's life for his friends.John 15:12-13 (NKJ)

Be kindly affectionate to one another with brotherly love, in honor giving preference to one another; not lagging in diligence, fervent in spirit, serving the Lord. Romans 12:10-11 (NKJ)

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Make sense? Now, which are you? Do you know your real self now?

Contemplate...